Don’t Take It Personally

Well-meaning people have used that line over the course of my life and looking back I usually blew it off. I was too wrapped up in my hurt. But I’ve come to realize how much practical–and spiritual–truth is in “don’t take it personally” because it’s true, it’s not personal. The stuff that people say and do is about their state of being. When I realize that simple truth–I don’t need to take it into my state of being.

Queen of Wands and Trust

IMG_2325 (1).jpgIn my last post I dealt with The Queen of Swords and trust issues. That was about trusting/distrusting  others and trust/ lack of trust in Life itself. The Queen of Wands has it easier because she trusts herself. She trusts in her ability to handle what others and Life bring her way. She doesn’t expect people to behave a certain way or for outcomes to always be to her liking. But she is confident in her ability to make the most of it. Yeah–Queen of Wands! My Role Model!

Rethinking the 5 of Swords

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This card came up for me a lot awhile ago, when I was going through a tough time with some people in business. I was taught that the card meant a shallow victory or that you need to examine your actions and ask yourself if you’re being a bully.

But in my case, I needed to stand up for myself. I think this is hard for me sometimes. But as I kept drawing the card, I kept getting used to the idea. Far from bullying, I was just setting some boundaries. Drawing a line in the sand with my sword.

Dukkha, Tarot, and Me

I lead a Tarot meetup group in San Francisco. We explore tarot topics and do readings for ourselves and each other. It’s usually really fun! But then someone came into the group, and the energy changed for me. I felt like I was being judged and criticized. And each time she came, the feeling intensified. On our last meeting together, she sat directly across from me. Her frowns and negative words were coming right at me and it was intense.

Shortly after that I attended a Buddhist talk about Dukkha (basically Buddhist for pain and suffering) and difficult people. The speaker talked about how when we encounter difficult people, our first reaction is to push them away. I could relate to that! Then she reminded us that dukkha was our teacher. And difficult people are our teachers. My heart softened toward my difficult person. And I left the the talk feeling more open and inquisitive about the whole thing.

Through a chance encounter, I ended up getting a tarot card reading from a really skilled reader. My experience with the “difficult person” came up. The reader and I discussed why I had brought her into my life and what she had to teach me. It was then that I realized–she was my inner critic personified! Wow!

That revelation has changed me deeply. Now when a self critical thought comes into my mind, I see the woman from my group. I look into her face and feel compassion for her and myself. I know that my self criticism is as off-base as her criticism was toward me. And the result is: I’m nipping my negative self talk in the bud!

She doesn’t come to the group anymore. I eventually asked her to leave. But I honor her as my teacher.