I have those amazing insights; I feel so close to The Light, and then doubt creeps in. Am I on the path at all? Am I really helping others? How can I when I don’t even feel connected, when I’m in a bad mood? Am I a phony?
My Kabbalah teaching has shown me that this is part of the path. At these times, nothing will satisfy but my connection to The Light. This is when I humbly ask for connection. And this brings me closer to The Light. All comes from the same Source, the down times are part of the Path. This is the time to practice faith.
The 8 of Think in my deck ( traditional 8 of Swords) is about being caught up in our own minds, whether it be through anxiety, depression, fear or frustration. The first step to working with this mental state is acceptance.
I’ve had cyclical depression since my teenage years, and through the power of acceptance, I’ve learned to say to myself : “I’m depressed”. That simple statement is so liberating! It acknowleges how I feel and ends the struggle. The struggle to find the cause, to blame myself or someone or something else. So now, I am just experiencing the depression, which I know will pass, without the added shame, guilt and anger.
And the really cool part is that by accepting how I feel–I am accepting myself on a deep level. That is healing!