When I’m disappointed in myself, I need to love myself more.

I was feeling kinda crappy. You know, haven’t gone to the gym, not eating well. I decided instead of telling myself something negative about not living up to my expectations–I’d love myself more. Doesn’t it make sense? Why kick myself when I’m down? I’m choosing to love me!  I hope if any of you are going through a hard time that you are giving yourself the positive self talk that you deserve!

More Kabbalah

I’ve just started to learn about Kabbalah. I’m approaching this, as I do all spiritual study, with the aim to incorporate the knowledge into my consciousness and daily life, so it’s something that I’m taking very slowly. I’m only sharing the “practical” parts, the parts that we can apply directly to our lives, not all the background, although that is truly wonderful.

Here’s what I feel compelled to share today: According to what I’ve learned, the key to enlightenment is basically, moving out of the egoistic desire for “receiving” to “bestowing”. “Receiving” is the mode most of us operate in most of the time. It’s the perspective of “how can I get what I want”. “Bestowing” is what God does for us; God Energy gives us our very life and everything in it. Operating from “bestowing”, with the energy and intent of “giving” in our hearts, makes us more like God, closer to God, and connects us to all other souls. And it brings blessings down to earth.

I’ve been trying to apply this concept to my life. As I go through my day, whenever I start to get irritated, I realize that what’s behind that is my desire to “receive”. Why doesn’t my husband notice that I’m feeling down and why isn’t he trying to do something to make me happy? How come my friend hasn’t called? When I shift that energy to “bestowing” energy–what can I do for my husband and what can I do for my friend?–my heart feels open and connected and life seems to flow. I am happy!

That’s all I have for today. I look forward to sharing again.

Buddhism and Cats and Everyday Life

I recently moved from San Francisco to Athens, Georgia. I lived in San Francisco for about 16 years and couldn’t have any pets. Since I got to Athens, I’ve accumulated 3 cats. And they have helped me so much in my daily spiritual practice. Being constantly interrupted by a cat that that wants to walk on my laptop or crawl into a cupboard that I opened or sit in the sink when I’m brushing my teeth (I could go on) has made me stop many times throughout my day and practice patience and love. I mean, how can you not love them? And you can not rush through, you need to stop and pet and say sweet things to them; you must be patient.

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