I have those amazing insights; I feel so close to The Light, and then doubt creeps in. Am I on the path at all? Am I really helping others? How can I when I don’t even feel connected, when I’m in a bad mood? Am I a phony?
My Kabbalah teaching has shown me that this is part of the path. At these times, nothing will satisfy but my connection to The Light. This is when I humbly ask for connection. And this brings me closer to The Light. All comes from the same Source, the down times are part of the Path. This is the time to practice faith.
I’ve just started to learn about Kabbalah. I’m approaching this, as I do all spiritual study, with the aim to incorporate the knowledge into my consciousness and daily life, so it’s something that I’m taking very slowly. I’m only sharing the “practical” parts, the parts that we can apply directly to our lives, not all the background, although that is truly wonderful.
Here’s what I feel compelled to share today: According to what I’ve learned, the key to enlightenment is basically, moving out of the egoistic desire for “receiving” to “bestowing”. “Receiving” is the mode most of us operate in most of the time. It’s the perspective of “how can I get what I want”. “Bestowing” is what God does for us; God Energy gives us our very life and everything in it. Operating from “bestowing”, with the energy and intent of “giving” in our hearts, makes us more like God, closer to God, and connects us to all other souls. And it brings blessings down to earth.
I’ve been trying to apply this concept to my life. As I go through my day, whenever I start to get irritated, I realize that what’s behind that is my desire to “receive”. Why doesn’t my husband notice that I’m feeling down and why isn’t he trying to do something to make me happy? How come my friend hasn’t called? When I shift that energy to “bestowing” energy–what can I do for my husband and what can I do for my friend?–my heart feels open and connected and life seems to flow. I am happy!
That’s all I have for today. I look forward to sharing again.
Because the Tarot is said to be influenced by the Kabbalah, I wanted to try to understand it. So I have begun studying. Before now I was intimidated by this mystical work that seemed so different than anything else I have studied. As I delve in, I have to say that I am in awe and I find myself resonating with the little I have encountered so far. I know very little and am a humble student, but I feel that I can share this one concept: We can make the decision to “bestow” instead of being focussed on “receiving.” By choosing to bestow (give) we become more like the Divine who bestows everything.
This simple concept is worth meditating on. I see it in my own life, choosing to be giving, to be of service over thinking only of what I can receive creates a powerful shift; the ego takes a back seat. The Tarot is here to help us to grow spiritually. I hope to share more about my journey into the Kabbalah as I learn.