I was feeling kinda crappy. You know, haven’t gone to the gym, not eating well. I decided instead of telling myself something negative about not living up to my expectations–I’d love myself more. Doesn’t it make sense? Why kick myself when I’m down? I’m choosing to love me! I hope if any of you are going through a hard time that you are giving yourself the positive self talk that you deserve!
Yesterday, I was reading one of my meditation books. In it, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso talks about the importance of remembering our mortality as a way to remember what is important and to act accordingly. I really thought about this approach and the power that it has to change my life. I mean, if I remember that I’m going to die; and I’m upset with somebody, and I remember that they’re going to die, naturally I’m going to be less attached to what we are arguing about. And I’m going to be kinder to myself and the other person.
And wouldn’t my thoughts in general be more positive if I remembered that I only have a limited amount of time? This made me think about my last trip to Rome. Of all the cities I’ve been to, Rome is, hands down, my favorite. So when I was there, I wanted to soak up all the beauty and enjoy every minute. I ignored my jet lag to fully experience a Bernini’s sculpture. I let go of the fact that I lost one of my earrings on the flight because–I didn’t care–I was looking at the Forum! When somebody shoved me on the bus, I wasn’t bothered because I was going to see the catacombs. The reason I had this attitude is because I knew I only had six days to be in my beautiful favorite city.
I don’t know how long I have to live, so really, everyday, no matter where I am, is precious. And by remembering my mortality and the mortality of all living things–I can enjoy my time here on earth more fully.